Slacking for days...

source:google

No idea why i keep on slacking doing nothing....

few days have pasts.. things haven finish all left undone...

so lazy....

According to Urban Dictionary > To not work for long periods of time!!! OMG that true... i do nothing...... for a long times.... !!!!!!!!!!!

damn i really need to finish my last assignment ....

when can i stop slacking... do i really need to wait till Thursday (18) to start my assignment!!! OMG!!!

help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!

JenGen Mention, I am really depressed and can't find a way to pull myself out of it. I talk about it but it doesn't help, try to do the things I normally like but just don't really care about them or anything. I can't take antidepressants so I am really at a loss. Are there any secrets out there of how to pull yourself out of it? Or do you just always have to wait it out?

Shit happen to me to.. and i feel the same way... fuxck it right? when can i get out from this shit!

Space Bound

So after a year and 6 months, it's no longer me that you want

But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you, let down my guard, swear to God
I'll blow my brains in your lap, lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I'm pleadin', I'm tryin' to stop you from leavin'
You won't even listen, so fuck it

We touch, I feel a rush, we clutch, it isn't much
But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us
It's lust, it's torturous, you must be a sorcerous
Cause you just, did the impossible, gained my trust
Don't play games it'll be dangerous if you fuck me over
Cause if I get burnt, I'ma show ya what it's like to hurt
Cause I've been treated like dirt befo' ya
And love is "evol", spell it backwards, I'll show ya

Nobody knows me, I'm cold, walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own, it's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion what'so ever, so
Don't ask me why I have no love for these mo'fuckin' hoes

Blood-suckin' succubuses, what the fuck is up with this?
I've tried in this department, but, I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be like tryin' to start over
I've got a hole in my heart from some kind of emotional roller-coasta';
Somethin' I won't go on till you toy with my emotions, ho it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold ya, wasn't jokin' when I told ya
You take my breath away, you're a supernova
And I'm a...

(Chorus)

I'm a space-bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
Right at you

(Verse 2)

I'll do whatever it takes, when I'm with you, I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't with you, I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go, no boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think's
Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em, it's never the same
You want 'em when they don't want you, soon as they do, feelin's change
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate
I wasn't lookin' when I stumbled onto you, musta been fate
But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take, let's cut to the chase
'Fore the door shuts in your face, promise me if I cave in and break
And leave myself open that I won't be makin' a mistake
Cause I'm a

(Chorus)

I'm a space-bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
Right at you

(Verse 3)

So after a year and 6 months, it's no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you, let down my guard, swear to God
I'll blow my brains in your lap, lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I'm pleadin', I'm tryin' to stop you from leavin'
You won't even listen, so fuck it, I'm tryin' to stop you from breathin'
I put both hands on your throat, I sit on top of you, squeezin'
Til' I snap your neck like a Popsicle stick, ain't a possible reason
I can think of to let you walk up out this house and let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks, then I let you go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple, I told you this

(Bridge)

And I would've did anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now, it's too late to save our
Love
Just promise me you'll think of me
Every time you look up in the sky and see a star
Cuz I'm a

(Chorus)

I'm a space-bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin' right at you
Right at you
250, 000 miles and a clear night in June
And I'm so lost without you
Without you
Without you

Im going there Soon -.-" just can't wait for it

Sleeping Under the Stars

Extravagant outdoor beds

By Alison Humes

Amangiri Resort, Canyon Point, Utah

Photo: Stephen Wilkes

There's something magical about sleeping under the stars—the velvety sky overhead, the caress of cool breezes, a dazzling sunrise greeted with birdsong. But if that whole business of lying on the ground in a sleeping bag makes you want to sprint to the nearest hotel and hide under the duvet, we have a solution: nine extravagant beds that just happen to be outdoors. They're in the most extraordinary locations, too, such as on a photographer's platform in a South African game reserve, atop a 12th-century fortress in Rajasthan, or amid the mesas of southern Utah. So even if camping's not your thing, you can enjoy all the glories of nature with a hearty dose of nurture.

Amangiri Resort

Lake Powell, Canyon Point, Utah

A full moon showcases the mesas against the sky. At night the occasional coyote yips, and at dawn bighorn sheep may troop by. Welcome to Amangiri, the extravagant 600-acre resort near the Navajo Nation in Utah as it cuts in near Page, Arizona. This is one of the best places in the United States for star-gazing: The air is clear and dry, and there’s very little ambient light. If you’d like less exposure but a more focused relationship with the starry pitch above, six Amangiri suites have “Sky Terraces”—three protecting walls with the open sky above and a pool below you. With summer nights in the 60s and January nights in the mid-30s or lower, there’s appropriate bedding—from silk and wool throws to plumped down quilts. Cocoa with a shot of brandy? Coffee at 5:30 a.m.? This is Amangiri ($1,500–$3,500).

Lion Sands Private Game Reserve, South Africa

Photo: Sabi Sand

Lion Sands Private Game Reserve

Sabi and Sand Game Reserve, South Africa

Guy Aubrey Chalkley, who founded Lion Sands in 1933, used to tell his daughter when she slept out on the Chalkley Treehouse, “Never fear the roar of the lion for it is rather when you don’t that you need to be aware.” Over the past 60 years, this tree house—built as a photographer’s platform—has been reinforced and adorned with a cozy double bed, a hot-water bottle, dressing gowns, and a basin. Guests can have dinner in the tree or dine at the lodge and head out afterward. Once dropped off—with mosquito repellent, torches, lanterns, and a two-way radio—they’re on their own till morning. Chances are that during the night you will hear a lion roaring to stake his claim. This part of South Africa, bordering Kruger National Park, has a high concentration of noisy predators: Hyenas and jackals engage in chitter chatter. At sunset and sunrise birds chime in. The tree house sits on the edge of an open plain: You may be able to hear the Sabie River, about a mile away. The sun sets and evening emerges; when the moon is full, you might see its light shimmering off the elephants less than 200 feet away across the plain. They are remarkably silent under the spectacular night sky—the Southern Cross, shooting stars, satellites—which is all yours, from horizon to horizon (tree house, $254).

Blue Mountains Private Safaris, Australia

Photo: Archie Sartracom

Blue Mountains Private Safaris

Blue Mountains National Park, Australia

“You know the song? ‘Once a jolly swagman?’” asks Mark Tickner, who takes guests into the bush for Blue Mountains Private Safaris. A swagman, he says, is a nomad who sleeps in a swag. But here, the swags are padded, lined with fine cotton, and laid out on decks by the Wollondilly River, 75 miles southwest of Sydney, where the eucalyptus forests yield their oily vapor to the sun, leaving a scent and a blue haze that gives the mountains their name. After days spent hiking the sandstone escarpment and deep gullies, viewing platypuses, kangaroos, wombats, and echidnas, slip into your swag. Dingoes howl, parrots and eagles screech, rapids roar. At dawn, the kookaburra laughs (yes, sitting in the old gum tree) and grazing kangaroos thump around in the bush (doubles, $1,317).

L’Albereta, Erbusco, Lombardy, Italy

Photo: Stefano Scata

L’Albereta, Erbusco

Lombardy, Italy

Industrialist Vittorio Moretti has a theory about houses, that each should have a pensatoio at the top—a place surrounded by windows where a person can pause, contemplate nature, and refresh. So L’Albereta, his family’s Relais & Châteaux hotel in the hills of Franciacorta, between Brescia and Bergamo, has the Cabriolet Suite. Atop a tower facing Lake Iseo, you are in the clutches of Northern Italian luxury—sitting on satin, grosgrain, damask; surrounded by vineyards; fed by the great Milanese chef Gualtiero Marchesi. Feeling romantic? Press a button and the roof above the bed opens to the heavens. During the annual Perseid meteor shower (known here as the tears of San Lorenzo), the suite is particularly sought after: Legend has it that for every falling star, a wish will be granted. But the sky is beautiful anytime, and the nights can be full of the perfume of wild roses, jasmine, and gardenias (Cabriolet Suite, $617).

Loisaba Wilderness Lodge, Kenya

Photo: www.loisaba.com

Loisaba Wilderness Lodge

Nanyuki, Kenya

Loisaba, on Kenya’s Laikipia Plateau, has spurred 10 marriage proposals. “It’s all about the beds,” says owner Tom Silvester. “They are ridiculously comfortable.” You’re just off the equator, amid acacia woodland and savanna, not far from the Rift Valley, the birthplace of modern man. There are two Star Bed camps: Kiboko, by a huge water hole that attracts wildlife, and Koija, on the Ewaso Nyiro River (you can hike from one to the other). Inspired by a Mukokoteni handcart and built on an old Land Rover axle, each bed is on a large platform set about 10 feet off the ground and 100 feet apart, ensuring privacy. In the evening, the Masai and Samburu who run the camps wheel them out from under a palm-thatch roof. The air is clear 300 days a year, granting full access to the wonder of African skies (doubles, $1,190).

Adrère Amellal Desert Ecolodge, Egypt

Photo: Siwa Sustainable Development Program

Adrère Amellal Desert Ecolodge

Siwa Oasis, Egypt

Adrère Amellal, built of mud and salt crystals, sits at the foot of a flat-topped white mountain considered holy by the local people. The lodge uses no power except for the generator that runs the kitchen. Outdoor beds are set up on the roof or out in the desert, south of the Siwa Oasis. In an immense “ballroom” (a bowl between tall dunes), dinner is served at magnificent tables set with crystal and argenterie. Later, Siwan staff in turbans and tunics escort you into the desert. They don’t use flashlights; you walk up a dune in the pitch black. On the other side are real beds made of palm reeds, with proper quilts and pillows and Egyptian cotton sheets. But if you fall asleep, you’ll miss the magic of absolute silence ($800; open Sept.–July).

Killa Bhawan, Rajasthan

Photo: Chris Caldicott

Killa Bhawan

Jaisalmer, Rajasthan

In Jaisalmer, a living fortress high above the surrounding small city of the same name, a Killa Bhawan guest might follow local custom and sleep out on the roof, in a well-made colonial bed. Jaisalmer’s magic is magnified by its isolation in the middle of the Indian desert. Known as the Golden City, it was built in the twelfth century of yellow limestone marble and is famous for its palace, which you can see from the terrace, as well as its exquisite havelis (mansions) and seven Jain temples. Night brings a little wind, a clear desert sky, and the sounds of the city bedding down. Three thousand people live in the fort; in the temples, the worshippers sing and drum, then motorbikes head home, and by ten all becomes quiet. Life begins again around six with the bells of the temples and first prayers (doubles, $120–$200).

my monologues!

You know what I found out? Huh? You know what I found out. That life is a... a... a... a puzzle! Life is a PUZZLE. Except there's... there's no picture on the box... no kind of direction, at all, cause... cause the pieces are all scattered and broken everywhere... and just when ya think ya got it, JUST WHEN YA THINK YA GOT IT! You don't. Cause there's always pieces missing, there's always something missing. And then it all comes tumblin' down, Your whole life just comes tumblin' down. And I miss her already. She had the most beautiful eyes. Yeah they were like hazel green or something..

Bored moment.!!!!!

How hard is copy and paste!!! too bored and have nothing too do!!!!
some idiot football player!!! Keep so called insured his hair for 1 million!!!! (Troy Polamalu's)! Troy the Tunder God!! =D

How the hell he play football with that funky hair>>..!!!
and that so call hair been insured USD1million

How young generation will change the workplace !

Oooo~ how hard too copy and paste... =D

There’s no doubt that young generation which we called generation Y will fundamentally change the corporate sector globally. Managing the upcoming generation (generation y) is the hot topic among consultants, Human Resource executives and talent management professionals.
We have a voice, and we have the ear of the decision makers. Not bad for a group of lazy, entitled, twenty somethings. We’ve learned the importance of balancing work and life from our overworked parents, and we’ve watched our older siblings and cousins struggle with their baby boomer bosses who refuse to retire. Now we’re primed to change the workplace for the better. Here’s how they will do it.


The new generation Y at workplace will have a voice, and the ear of the decision makers. Not bad for a group of lazy, entitled, twenty somethings. They have learned the importance of balancing work and life from our overworked parents, and they have watched their older siblings and cousins struggle with their baby boomer bosses who refuse to retire. Now they are primed to change the workplace for the better.




1-Now there will only Productive meetings


Time has changed when people wasted their hours in unproductive meetings and gained nothing, the next generation will bring the proper schedule with them, the meetings will only consists of the productive activities and last for 30-60 minutes at their max.


2-Flexible Working Hour


9:00-5:00 was the traditional working hours, now the time schedule will be change, people will not come to show that they are present, the working schedule will be flexible, people at their seats will be only avail when they are supposed to work, in their free time, they are not going to stay in the office. this will not only save a lot of workplace resources but also bring a custom of responsibility in the employees.


3- Administrative Support


The up coming generation will not going to perform the clerical jobs for them selves, the manager or even assistant manager will go for assisting staff, the time in non productive activities will not be consumed. Only critical thinking and the activities like decision making can be made by the managers.


4-Do or Die


People will believe in doing of their jobs, if they are unable to perform what they really supposed to do, they will go for quiting the job. The concept of retainment of the employee will again faded away. you work and you will get pay, you don't work, you will be get fired.


5-Compensation Packages


Remuneration packages will also change, people will go for the best of their compensation. organization will pay the employees higher for their duties in order to retaining the employees for longer period. salaries will be highly competitive, new generation needs to be pay more in order to get recruited. This financial crunch will not lasting for ever.


6-Performance Based Measures


Emotions and other parameters will soon comes to an end, there will be only performance, a sole criteria for a job. Measures on the based of performance will get sticker and sticker, the employers expectations will exceed hundred folds more than the present.


7- Future of HR personnel


HR personnel would be the highly honored individual of the organization as the employer would realize the strength of the human capital and in order to gain momentum in the workforce HR department will supposed to be work harder.

'Generation Debt' is going deep into the red!!!!

copy and pasted! how hard was that...

Zoe Paul has made drastic changes to her former lifestyle. As a Web designer in San Francisco during the heady dot-com era, she started her mornings at Starbucks, bought her coworkers drinks during happy hour, and ate out nearly every night.

Now 30, Paul works without benefits for a small ad agency in the Bay Area and worries daily about being laid off. To help pay off $10,000 in credit card debt, she routinely empties coins into a jar by her bed. When furnishing her living room, a trip to a furniture store was not an option; instead, she bought a tweed sofa bed from a thrift shop for $67. She packs lunch every day. Cable is gone, so is Internet access.

The most painful trim: Abandoning her daily Starbucks run. “That’s a thing of the past. Now it’s a treat,” she said.

Serves her right, you think? Many twenty- and thirtysomethings raised on MTV and InStyle magazine have tried to mimic the glamorous lives of the rich and famous through the use of credit cards. But as the 21st century has ushered in skyrocketing housing prices, stagnant income levels and five- or six-figure student loans to pay off — a seismic shift has occurred: A growing number of young adults are reassessing their lifestyles and mimicking the frugal habits of their Depression-era grandparents.

They clip coupons, organize grocery-shopping trips to Sam's Club instead of darting to Whole Foods and now consider a $4 cappuccino as an infrequent luxury.

“Life just seems more expensive these days,” said Paul. “When I was growing up, I didn't know a lot about handling money or being frugal. Now I'm learning.''

High housing costs
With the median home price rising by 26 percent in the past five years — while young adults' income has gone up less than 10 percent — people in their twenties are playing an endless game of catch-up. Buying a home isn't even in the cards since prices in many urban areas where young people go to start their careers have more than doubled.

face problem!

Deng! i wanted to update my uniSA blog and i waited so long my blog post haven load... SO CALLED FACE PROBLEM!!! and when i ask for help the page was load.. lol!

face problem!!! struggle!!! which topic!!! Young Generation Struggle in Financial or Depression which one to choose....
which 1.. depression was taken by classmate .. i wanted to be special so that my topic are fresh .... its dangerous!!!

We touch i feel like rush, we crutch it isn't much..But it's enough to make me wonder what's in store for us!!! it's lust, it's torturous..you must, be a sorcerer..cuz u just, did the impossible, gain my trust, don play game..it can be dangerous..

WHICH ONE... @...@'

err... current issues!

This is week two since I started my intake at Taylors. I found out that I have few heavy subjects that I have to cook in these courses. I notice that my brain are not working properly, I was trying and trying to click out idea from my brain. I was cracking for few days. Idea still did not pop out like I expected, I keep cracking and cracking and I trying to force out idea. Things keep pop out.. such as gamble addiction, online addiction, pre marriage sex, global warning, global financial crisis, celebrity role model, corruption, sex orientation, poverty, alcohol & drugs abuse and things like that’s . I keep do few mind maps. Idea was all around me and I cannot do any decision which idea should I choose. Mind maps are all around me and I try to pick one. I been so picky because I wanted be different from others students. There are so many students taking this subject I worry my work will not able to be interested like others……

Why I choose Depression? I feel that by doing this will make my life easy? I believe that everyone been thru this. It’s just another topic that most people will do. I have look thru some clip and I notice that a lot teenagers show depression mostly on sadness and most likely involve in love story. Very people did not notice by cannot complete assignment can lead to depression like what I am trying to do now…

still thinking what to write... 1500... word to go! idea where are u!
Depression
Why I choose depression?
By doing what can lead the topic interesting?
What I can show people by doing this topic?
How I am going to this?
How people react to depression?
By doing what we can get out from depression?
Normally what type of mood we can say we fall for depression?
Depression basically brings us to sad mood?
Apathy

bored moment....

He accompanies me during my happy and sad moment. He send someone to guild me when I lost…. Life is about up and down. Sometimes I feel that I have nothing else to life for and sometimes I feel that life is an exam that everyone has to face for.

He send me an angel to protect me, its help me when I face problem. Its was the happiest moment in my life. But not every time things will work so well. My God allow difficulty
Happen to everyone. its will help an individual get stronger and gain wisdom for each experience that I face.

This is the different between man and God. Man needs love and God need man to worship him. And I know that my God is very kind for me. He has been protecting me from everything that happens to me.

What is life? Bible said that life is a creation thing that God create.
I need Strength and wisdom!!!!!!!!!

What's Left Of Me

I am lost. I lost everything; lose my happiness, pride, days and my desire. Depression is not a reason but I still stuck with it; everyone will have their own journey. My journey towards you had ended everything seen like a dream the moment I wakeup its just puff gone. I wanted to stay as long as possible in my dream; I don’t want to wakeup I don want to face it. all I wanted is run away from the problem that I have to face it.

What is life, life is about take and go? Some people seek towards religion, some people make their way of life and some people have to accept how hard or simple their life is.
How to describe my life… I feel that my life is like rollercoaster up and down ….. Have I seek religion for the depression I been thru... I really can’t face it. How come and why? Have I try others way’’’’’’? I drunk myself I? Have I do some extreme activities? Nothing can triumph over it. I don really get it. It’s been months and I still being like a shit/ zombie. Sometimes I realize that I am a jackass that lost in a forest by doing nothing sitting at riverside by waiting the pain flow away.

What can I say? I miss her? I love her? I wanted her so much? I need her?
Give me something to believe at so that I can move on with my life…

Haizz /\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\ its all about up and down………

My heart

my heart is broken and its all because of you
my heart cant be put back together with some glue

my heart is full of pain and u dont even care
my heart really needs you but your not even there

my heart now as an empty space
my heart needs u to fill that place

my heart feels the friendship will never be replaced
my heart wants you to still keep me safe

my heart knew this friendship would grow into something more
my heart knew you were going to shut that door

my heart now misses all fun we have had together
my heart ...................................

this is how i feel this afternoon!

They say there's no place like home, I believe that
But my home is not where last night I sat
My home is where I keep my things
My home is where my doorbell rings
My home is not where my memories lie
Where I grew up in sorrow and the years wondered by
And now it's discovered I will always be bound
It surrounds me with love like a comforting dome
Being wrapped in your arms is where I call my home
My life makes more sense, the world seems more true
I love my home and I really love you

loss

You don't love me, is my destiny
You don't care, is my bad luck
You don't need me, is my loss
As never ever again you want to hold me, is again my loss
Is also the pain, of my life.
This pain I wish, I never had to feel, is again my destiny
Which is why my luck is running out.
I am failing, and gaining nothing...Except pain
Is my biggest loss.

trust

To trust someone means you trust them with your life
To trust someone is based on your clarity of judgement
To trust is to believe that the person has you 100%
To trust
To trust
Who could you trust in your greatest moment in need?
Who will be worthy of having your trust?
Will you be able to confide your trust among certain people?

how lost im

Months have past, my life have lost direction to move on.
everything have stop, my hope died. i have nothing else beside my shadow.
the only things that will not betray me is my shadow. i have done some mistake, i have lose my love one, my life is full of sadness and anger.i wish someone just kill me.....

i really miss you.. i wanted you so badly... i can't face it... everything i do remind me of you. i miss you so badly....

Anger

Anger is deep within me
Anger is what I want to hear
Anger drives me crazy
Anger is what turns me on
Anger wants to kill me
Anger is what makes me mad
Anger inside me
Needs to stop
Where did it come from
Will it ever stop
My anger is uncontrollable
Anger lashes out at innocent victims
But, why, where, who, what
Brought me so much anger?
Everything makes more anger in me
Life full of pain
Is there ever gonna be an ending?

Woman

Woman, Oh woman
Why do you make me feel
Every time I'm near you
My heads a spinning wheel

Woman, Oh woman
What have you done to me
Woman, Oh woman
Did you cast a spell on me

Woman, Oh woman
When you touch me, I chill
When you kiss me, I'm in heaven
I've known nothing so real

Woman, Oh woman
When I gaze into your eyes
I'm blinded by the passion
I feel that's deep inside

Woman, Oh woman
Did you over do your spell
My hearts in many pieces
It sadness me to tell

Woman, Oh woman
What have you done to me
Woman, Oh woman
Did you cast a spell on me

Woman, Oh woman
In sadness I do tell
My hearts in tiny pieces
Did you over do your spell

alone

alone I am in the rain
wishing and wishing for it to rid my pain
alone in the darkness I couldn’t ask for more
alone as I cry these salty tears
alone dreaming about my fears
alone I am but why
why would I lay here and die
why is my being alone always the answer
why is being alone part of my disaster.
Alone I am in my fairytale dream

The darkness around me what does it mean
alone as the cold drapes over me
forever alone I choose to be.

life II

Life is full of challenges
Which people do face
Life comes and goes
Just as the season changes
Life is all about time which
Which wait for no one
Life is so beautiful
Which is not appreciated by all
Life is a market place
Where people sell and buy
Life is a journey
Where people travel pass
Life is up and down
Where people struggle
Life is all about you
Life life life life
Ever existing

Memory II

This love I feel is a memory
But this memory of love is loved
For it’s a truly lovely memory
Of us two, who have loved

But our love is only a memory
and memories are soon forgotten
But the love I hold for you
Will never spoil, nor rotten

It’s not the love that you remember
For that love is a memory true
The love I hold is that of a loved one
Yes, I’d say that would do

For our love is ever evolving
Be it dead and in the past
The love I have for you now
Not even time could out last

Call it the love of the first
Or the first love for sake
No matter the distance, no matter the time
A simple call you can always make

For this love I’ll always remember
Until my last breath day
The brotherly love I hold for you now
I wouldn’t have it any other way

running away

I am running out things to say
I am running out of lies
I am running out trust
I am running out of Idea
I am running out of love
I am running out of hopes
I am running out of dreams
I am running out of silent screams

I am starting to get tired of running toward you
so I guess ill just start running away

Fear

Fear is when you run away,
Fear is when you’re scared to love someone,
Fear is when the sky turns upside-down,
Fear is when you lose your loved ones,
Fear is a feeling of danger,
Fear is when you aren’t brave,
Fear is the feeling of anger,
Fear is when you can’t behave,
Fear is when your shy,
Fear is like not having devotion,
Fear is when you’re afraid of saying bye,
Fear is like a dark blue ocean,
Fear is like being lonely,
Fear is like not being able to reappear,
Fear is like feeling ghostly,
Fear is like a dark dungeon.

My angel

My angel is the one who looks over me
My angel is the who cares for me
My angel is the one who loves me
My angel has beautiful eye
My angel has beautiful black hair
My angel will be there when I get hurt
My angel will be the one that is always on my mind
She is the angel that keeps me breathing
She is the angel of my dream
She is the angel that keeps me alive
My angel will cheer me up when I’m sad
My angel will love me for me
She is my angel of my life

Sometimes

Sometimes i feel like I'm left out,
Sometimes I don't like my life,

Sometimes I feel like the world
should be different,

Sometimes I just think there's a missing piece,
Sometimes I feel like people don't like me,

Sometimes I feel like the world is after me,
but just only sometimes

Moody

What is life when all you do is breath
What is life with no mission
What is life as it lies around and does nothing but explode you
What is life when you are limited against others
What is life if you cant tell what's there for you
What is life if I have no answers to these questions
What is life if you don't know the end to it
What is life after your death
What is life without rhythm
What is life with limited chances
What is life with lie

What do I mean by 'life'

A true friend

A true friend
A true friend is the one who picks you up when you fall
A true friend is one that won't lie
A true friend is there when you call
A true friend is there when you want to die
A true friend knows just what to say
A true friend won't care what other people think
A true friend will help you find your way
A true friend will make sure you don't sink
A true friend will help you choose your path
A true friend will know when something is wrong
A true friend has to sometimes face your wrath
A true friend makes you feel like you belong
A true friend………………………………….

Lonely Part II

Lonely, lonely me, I'm all by myself
All alone in my tiny world
Lonely, the world run without me.
Oh, lonely, lonely me; in a cruel and twisted world.
Close my eyes and drifting away
From this lonely, lonely place

Lonely

Lonely I, lonely love you,
Lonely I, surrounded by nothing,
Lonely I, pieced and waiting,
Lonely I, cursed without you.

Lonely I, sit and think,
Lonely I, was before I met you,
Lonely I, hopeless still love you,
Lonely I, pain and nothing.

Lonely I, in the darkness,
Lonely I, with my tears,
Lonely I, sorrow and hate,
Lonely I, is this my fate?

Love

What is it with Love
That makes me
then breaks me?

When in love
Do I truly love?

Is it really love
Or do I think that I love?

Maybe I just love being in love
Or love the idea of being in love?

I spent my whole life chasing love.
In the end the one thing I truly love
Could just be the pursuit of love.

Sorrow

In my inner grove, I sowed for sorrow.
Oh, how it grew below my skies,
such marvelous sight in my eyes.
I lived for sorrow -
till it grew too large in my grove,
I wept;
and watered my sorrow with tears.
I sowed for sorrow till it lived
and grew so strong, so fine.
It lived to take away my life...
It lived and then I died.

I remember

I remember when you said I love you
I remember when I said yeah me too

I remember our first kiss
I remember all the things we do

I remember when you said together...always
I remember when I stood in front of you dazzled and amazed

I remember the sparkle in your eyes and
I remember the tears you made me cry

I remember how I spend my time with you
I remember how you leave me, and I asking is there anything that I can do

I remember when I looked into your eyes and
I remember when we said our goodbyes

This is how i feel

suicide, suicide in my head,
suicide, suicide i'm nearly dead,
suicide, suicide my wrists are cut,
suicide, suicide i know i'm morally unwell.

suicide, suicide still in my head,
suicide, suicide the razors red,
suicide, suicide my hands dread,
suicide, suicide i know i'm morally unwell.


suicide, suicide prevailing in my head,
suicide, suicide the beginning of life,
suicide, suicide the end of sorrow,
suicide, suicide the end of pain.

suicide, suicide in my head,
suicide, suicide c'mon pull the trigger,
suicide, suicide im dead,
suicide, suicide i know i'm morally unwell.

I don't understand,
The pain of loss is too much.
Is that why I can't say sorry,
the pain of loss is too much.
I still love her
The pain of loss is too much.
She gives me pain,
the pain of loss is too much.
I sense in coming,
the pain of loss is too much.
The pain to me,
from her,
the pain of loss is just too much.

Loss

I resent
What loss represents
I resent
What great loss presents

So what’s the fuss about loss?

Waiting!
Debating!
Contemplating!

What is loss?
Something you care about
Taken away from you by force
Creating total unforgivable chaos

Thinking!
Blinking!
Seeking!

What is loss
It is a minus instead of a plus
Hence the unmistakable fuss
Death and sickness build up great sorrow
Loss brings despair instead of relief
And in loss itself I have no belief

I resent
What loss represents
I resent
What great loss presents
Loss! An unfair cause

Depression!!!!!

I have depression I do admit,
Admit that I have been depressed,
Thinking how much I wish I could be happy,
Thinking how much I want in life,
Thinking how much I miss someone,
When I look back I can see how much this depression has been there in my life,
I need this to be fake,
I need this not to be true,
Yet again its true I have this depression that makes me sad inside and the outside,
My depression has caused me to see how sad I can be,
How it makes me feel,
How this depression makes me think of cutting and suicide,
But we all human,
We have all have something to overcome,
I will overcome this depression once and for all,
I fight back some how,
This depression I will get rid of someday,
For now I have to deal with it.

Thanks part 2 =.="

Thank you,
Thanks for looking after me
Thanks for having someone to look upto and admire
Thanks for giving me space
Thanks for giving me advice
Thanks for making me laugh
Thanks for making me sing
Thanks for making me sigh
Thanks for giving me everything you can
Thank you

Thanks for everything!!!

Thanks for this and thanks for that
Thanks for the known and thanks for the unknown
Thanks for the things we called it loved
Thanks for the unloved
Thanks for the hearts small and large
Thanks thanks thanks

Even when life deals us lemons, we give thanks and make lemonade.
Even when the dark clouds appear ever so close to our person, we give thanks.
Give thanks give thanks give thanks

My Drug!

Music is what makes you move
Music is what makes you sad
Music can be good or bad depending on how its used
Music can make you choose different clothes to wear
Music can make you change your hair
Music can make you choose new friends
Music can make you want to dance
Music can make you fight
Music can make everything alright
Music can take care of you when your alone
Music can make everything feel like home
Music can harm and take away
Music can make you want to stay
Music is the only friend I have
Music is what keeps me alive
When I feel like I can't survive
Music that keep me survive

Confusing

Recently I was flirting with a girl. I have no idea why things like this will happen in this dark time of my life. Have no idea why I was doing this…. I scare I will drop into the deep hole and I really can’t afford to climb my self up.

My Identity

So lost deep inside,
Is all that makes me.
My true identity,
Is hard to see.
To my friends and family,
I’m a different me.
I have a secret identity,
Wonder if you’ll ever see.
My thoughts and actions,
Are all that makes me,
But some things I may do,
May not describe me.
Now look inside me,
If you ever feel,
like it,
I’m no-one but me,
Never hiding my identity.
Don’t say I am Donkey,
Because I never showed you,
two of me.
Now please,
Look at me,
Try to see the real me.
I’m no-one

My meaning of love

Love is unpredictable Love is uncontainable
Love is reliable Love is infallible

Love is right Love is wrong
Love is weak Love is strong

Love is good Love is pure
Love is real Love is sure

Love is jealous Love is pain
Love is lost Love is gained

Love is naked Love is raw
Love is everything Love is all

Love is here Love is there
Love is beautiful Love is fair

Love is great Love is shit
Love is demanding Love is it....

Emoing

I look at a tree,
And what do i see?
My Valentine's face
smiling back at me.

I spot a cute rock,
But, Oh what a shock,
For it remind of you
And that is no crock.

Everytime i think,
Everywhere that i turn,
My feeling just burn
With thoughts about you,
My love please don't spurn!

Each rock and each tree,
Each cloud and each bee,
The earth and the sea,
It all remind me.

Life

Some people might say life sucks
or life is full of shit
While other people say life is beautiful
or life is full of surprises
I must say, I agree with all those
Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it
Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness
Life is about happiness
Life is miserable
Life is about loss
Life is about smiling
Life is about crying
Life is about love
Life is depression

I could go on and on and tell you all about life
But I'm not here to sort this out for you
cuz..
Life is all about you and how you treat it
You criticizes it...well, you're actually criticizing yourself
You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you
Life is you so be careful how you describe it

Lost

Lost feeling to care

Lost sympathy to spare
Lost patience to bear

Lost sense to keep fair

Lost endurance, to follow restriction
Lost peace, to stop frustration
Lost power, to avoid attention
Lost strength, to evade aggression

Lost courage, to sacrifice
Lost kindness, to be polite
Lost temper, to keep quiet
Lost thought, to be right

Lost anger, to control
Lost opinion, to give poll
Lost desire, to keep goal
Lost myself, to have a role...